After my recent announcement, several friends have asked, “Do you still plan to travel to SLC and vote opposed at April General Conference?
I’ll let you draw your own conclusion.
Yesterday, I received this message.
I’ve read several of your blog articles and they are deeply moving.
I’m pretty sure you will not change the church, I’m afraid this church is beyond redemption. But I also know that you will save lives. That somewhere a boy or a girl stuck in the church will be able to overcome self-loathing and suicidal thoughts. That somewhere a father will not reject his son. That more and more people will start to question their behavior towards gays. Because of your dissent, and the dissent of people you have inspired. And for this, yes, all your efforts are meaningful, even if the church never changes.
I know it because I was once a gay teenager in this church. Those years were awful years of self-loathing, despair and loneliness. I was constantly reminded that I was broken and evil by everyone around me, and seriously contemplating suicide. It would have meant a lot to me if someone in the church had dissented by voicing his concerns about these ill-teachings, and his support of gay people (or even only by carrying a rainbow ribbon). Nobody did.
So I thank you for your dissent, in the name of the young boy I was, and in the name of all people suffering in silence in this church.